Hi and hallo, it has been so long long time this blog never been updated. This is my first post in year 2015, im gonna write about, hmmm am not so sure.
By the way, as the time passed by, i can see so many changes, differences, experiences in life. People come and go and like go forever.
Lumrah right? You might feel loosing , it break you till limits and you cant stand up with own feet. Ya i feel you. That is why i am here to share whatever ive gone through, what people gone through, sharing happiness and sorrow.
I have learned to accept whatever comes in my life, after done trying so hard, its time to let it be and just keep on praying. Remember you cant change fate, Allah will always hear what youre trying to say and will not stop doing that.
There are loads of memorable things ( i can honestly say) , which i cant get over it and i had to get over it . I know Allah has a better plan for us , for me.

I know i still have friends and family. Oh bitter butter better i can feel it till i can not stand anymore.
Crying all over the night remembering all good things, just you know it aint easy.
You will feel the world is blanked and blurry.
You cant even breath.

From a very happily cherish girl turned into someone different, i am no longer recognize myself.
From knowing my dad is suffering cancer , stage four. And knowing that someone you loved most will leave you someday.
It was hurt.

People will never feel the pain until they in the same shoe
Not sure how many times i never count it. How many people leave
Me hanging on the cliff.

You know it feels like terrible, horrible and traumatized.

Right now, bila kita rasa yang kita sangat lah jatuh bila ada orang yang mahu bangun kan kita walau kita ndak mau tapi harus juga terima sakit macam mana pun.
Selalu persoalkan kenapa kita diberi sebegini hebat dugaan, tapi kita jua teda kuasa mau halang.
Sakit nya cuma di dalam kita cuba sedaya mungkin untuk bangun dan melangkah.

For what i can say now, this is part of my life, Kita kena redha dan sekarang pasrah. Biarkan semua nya ditentukan oleh Allah.
Dia lebih maha Mendengar . Dia juga takkan bagi hambanya untuk terus bersedih. Sentiasa lah bersangka baik padaNya.
Kesedihan itu mungkin bersifat sementara, Allah mungkin akan bagi kebahagiaan disebaliknya. Bersabarlah.

One thing,  Mungkin dia boleh ambil dia dari dalam hidup , tapi please dont take my dad Ya Allah, it will be most painful ever.
If only you want to take my dad, please ambil lah saya sekali.
Ndak kan boleh hidup tanpa dia. Dia lah hero dia lah pengubat, ndak mau lagi kehilangan. sakit pedih teruk.
Siapa juga mau hadapi sebegitu hebat. Tiada siapa mau mendoakan itu terjadi.

Kepada dia, Terima kasih. 

Someday

tonight is the night where i live alone, haha just for err i think almost 4 hours. parents went to aunty's and me? mumble on and on and on. 

hmm where to start? i just feel empty. empty heart with empty space .

first question, how to make someone -- loves you back?

what can i do to make he loves me back?

each girl wanted the best for herself right? so do i.

but i know, it is not easy there's no guarantee also that life is easy. haha miley's song 

frankly, yes i do love him but i didnt even know if he likes me or no

any sign, any clue. im traumatized actually.

and yes of course sometimes i feel like giving up

when a girl gives up , it isnt bcs she doesnt love you. but bcs shes tired of getting hurt and feels like you'll never care.

im just a stupid girl for even dreaming that i could catch this..

would you say this?

CAN I HAVE THIS? ;') 

ive tried to make everything to be damn perfect. but still , it doesnt change anything. i have these feelings like from the first time we've met. and ill keep waiting.

never let anyone in

never fall in love to anybody else

how handsome they could be

hehe joking

if you know this,

dear AA.

im so sorry for loving you

Liking you, still

muka ini juga banyak memalukan diri sendiri. 

satu habit yang pelik akan dilakukan bila dia sayang seseorang.

SO-CALLED-BEING-IN-LOVE:

I Smurf You

Youre my heartbeat , my dorky jerky handsome boy, just stay the way you are, xx A's

Okay here i am wishing you guys a HAPPY EID DAY to all muslims . amaigaaadd rindu nya mahu tulis blog macam dulu. first of all tema baju raya tahun ini warna turquiose okay whuttt why? because of course i love they were my fav colors.

this year hmm i dont have much things to say just so far raya macam biasa rendang ketupat and ive gained weight ehh uh boring. usually this such thing will happen you cant avoid it useless amiroh. you still cant do anything bout it stop eating munching lah weh ! BUT on the second day of raya , kita demam lah menyampah benor bayangkan orang syok raya kita sok sek sok sek sapu hidung meleleh je suara pun ala ala Ramli Sarip sexay sangat tu. Kepala pening asyik mahu tidur malu bha gaya itu. hahaha

youre still teenager amirah so i think theres no time to be sad just enjoy the moment dont let people let you down and be happy always. I thanked God. Alhamdulillah. But still Alfatihah to my beloved Arwah Wak Usop , yang baru sahaja meninggal 5 days before hari raya. Semoga roh beliau dicucuri rahmat and yes i missed my granny ramai sangat yang dah pergi tinggalkan kita. Raya semakin lama semakin hambar tapi bagaimana pun hidup mesti diteruskan.

HELLO PARIS 2013 !

omg its been awhile man i didnt update my profile and blog. cis. such an incredibly lame woo. right now we are in new zone, i mean im already 21 yo. this, here, some pictures in Paris with my big family. that was so rare. we've spent alot of money, time, energy and so on. but honestly, i thanked God bcs gave us this rezeki.:') 2 weeks were good enough ! i miss Paris so much. Eiffel tower, staying in Jaures, then move to Ourqh . bawah hotel ada Mcd. Bayangkan -2 DEGREE CELCIUS menggigil macam mana it was so crazayyy you know. 

then went to Oman, Pak Ndak's house. besar mak ai lah. no wonder pak arab semua kayo. HAHA lol joking. We were attended Ucu and Matt Reception wedding. ohh May they have a happy wedded life afterwards. and yang paling pelik after balik paris semua macam dah jumpa jodoh masing masing. comel juga. This year would have so many weddings. when would be mine though? :| 

The Wedding, Paris

METRO TRAIN

BIG FAMILY 

 EIFFEL IM IN LOVE !

Comfy

Bedroom,where the place i find my own happiness and comfortable feelings ever . i re-decorated my bedroom to find some peaceful surrounding and enjoying my life time in here. it's kinda funny sebab macam tak menggambarkan langsung budak yang sudah berumur 20 tahun.

 

Good Times

Hi guys. okay i wrote alot today since my hand had been 'tied' up not to write anything in this blog. :p okay joking. *#np Pitbull - Dont stop the party song* okay maybe kali ini agak cliche bcs macam dah biasa sangat cerita. my love story yang tak pernah ada habisnya . i just want to share something that i was falling for a wrong guy, 3 months ago. maybe that was my fault . Otherwise, probably both. this story is a bit complicated lah. Deep down, yeah i was lied if i said ' i dont love him' . should i blame him for all this broken hearted? oh nope maybe. just forget it okay. Vacation in Penang with eka rafi and eka's family, okay i wont let myself burst into tears so kira settle ja lah benda ni. but hi , i miss ya . enough. ohhh ! before that, i had a crush on someone workmate yang sama kerja masa dekat Tangs dulu. of course he's specky. Nama dia still secret . We are still friends maybe i dont take it too serious ahh infact yes i do. hihi . maybe aku pandai simpan rahsia remember dia hantar balik rumah bila habis kerja and pernah lah text even sekejap . Semua my friends yang dah jumpa dia semua kata dia cute. aoouuuu. Nak kata baby face tu tak dia tua setahun stay shah alam juga. and kami masih berkawan baik sampai sekarang. last i met him at Barra . *tutup muka*

 Second good times , hmm oh ya i spent alot of time with Esma , Fiqa and Haidar, family and cousins. They're my good, super sporting peoples, indeed :) Shopping, movie and funfair-ing . etc. Here i share some pictures  

Fatin , Syaz  Happy Eidul Fitri

Final is OVER !

Fathimah and Hidayah

Aina , Asia Cafe Subang

Kampung Hulu Langat

Nieces and Nephew at DipnDip Bangsar

Funfair time

Sunway

Shout Awards, Sunway Lagoon

Ajat's niece

Chillis , Empire Gallery

Rafi and Arm, Pusat Akuatik

Esma , Eka And Mira

My bestfriend, Uitm Alor Gajah

Shout Awards

Pot Luck, Klebang

Eka's lil brother

Kampung Bharu

Chillis Empire Gallery Subang

Honestly my life is so happy. People cant stop cheering me every second, minute and hour. Every joyful moment is precious. Oh ya sorry if i'm not posting my parents photos because they are my special priority and private. :)

have a great day ahead Earthlings.